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Name: Amy
Birthday: 5/26/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: anything that will misplace me from my falling body. escape is the only way for me now, maybe if i escape long enough, i will never return...
goodnight, sleep tight, i will no longer fight
Expertise: hearing God speak to me and ignoring him, hurting myself, failing at creating my own fatality...one day ill get it right, with no interruptions... being messed up and confused, throwing up all my pain, escaping from my body by anything i can, forgetting who i am inside....
Occupation: Artist
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Member Since:
11/3/2004
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| ok, so im back, sorry if i am really slack with everything, but my life has become absolutly insane. my mother told me that i wont have a home here next week, and i dont know whats gonna happen, and she left last night, but i doubt its for very long, and now its just me and my dad and im sure that he's gonna take his anger with my om out on me. the ranch was awful, they force fed me everyday 6 times a day, and everytime it was a meal, like thansgiving....omg, i cant even believe how horrible it felt, i couldnt even move. we couldnt walk around, we had to get our toilets flushed for us, we had to eat everything or else we would be in lock down. it was the worst thing i could ever imagine. and now that i came home my parents are like TOTALLY crazy, and telling me that i cant have ANY eating disorder at all and i have to be completely cured after 2 months of treatment....HA, if anything it made me worse. i REALLY hate myself more now, and i hate my parents. i took some picutres but my boyfriend deleted them all so ill put some crappy ones that my parents took on here...i missed u guys, love you:
these are all during family week so i actually got to go outside, so i was a bit better with that, but i was still ready to die
me and my girl amy (same name)
oh btw thats not where i stayed, haha no way, that was just the sweets for family that came to visit
well im gonna go now, but i love you girls, tears, i hope something somehow miraculously changes...
love from what i have left, amy
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| hey beautiful girls, wow do i wish i had more time but i have a mere minute. i love you guys, and i miss you. i want you to know that this is the hardest most painful thing i have ever done and i've never cried as many tears. but please remember to keep praying for me. please. *tears fall from my face* i dont know what to do or where to go, my mom told me a lot of hard stuff yesterday and impretty much abandond by my family. richelle thank you so much for being my soul sister forever....
i miss you all. oh my gosh, i have to go, forever love.
buter fly kisses angel wings pixie dust and beautiful things...
in my broken heart always
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| I talked to Amy today, finally..... got a huge update on things. So many tears between the two of us.
First of all, to explain the new background...... I chose teardrops after the phone call, because her soul and spirit are crying out, and she feels so trapped, and so sad. I picked a new picture that is titled "Soul Sisters", because we are soul sisters, and her last words on the phone were, "soul sisters forever and ever.... and ever..."
I told her I've been updating on her site, because so many of you are wondering how she is doing/where she is, and she gave me permission to say a little of what is going on.
Amy is at Remuda Ranch, which is a Christian center for eating disorders. To make things a bit more clear, she did not choose to go there. She was forced into going, but has decided that there is really no way out right now, and she will be "released" Jan.28.
Amy is very depressed and in a lot of physical pain, so my prayer request is that she would feel some ease physically and emotionally. Also, her parents are going there this week, for intense family therapy, so prayer that there would be healing, understanding, forgiveness, and patience on all sides, is also what I'm asking.
Thank you for your prayers and your support. I'll try and update again soon.
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| Please pray that Amy has peace that can only come from God, fill her heart.
Amy did not try to kill herself, just to clear that.
But something did try to kill her... and that same thing tries to kill me each day, and probably a lot of you:
The eating disorder.
Please pray that Amy would take the time she has right now, and just focus on healthy needs, that her soul, spirit, and body, would be awakened, and that she would regain the life that she once had, before the eating disorder robbed her of it.
Because it does. Eating disorders steal who we once were. And we think we are going to turn out to be a better person in the end, but it's all a lie.
God is good. God can work through so many situations. Just trust in Him, and send your prayers to Amy. | | |
| This is Hidingplace. I just wanted to let everyone know that Amy is okay, and she won't be able to update for a while, but please pray for her and send her thoughts!
If you have any questions or concerns too, you can leave comments on my site, which is linked above this.
Thank you for your support of Amy and your prayers and thoughts.
  
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